“Then I will make up to you for the years that the swarming locust has eaten…” Joel 2:25a
I came to know the Lord in September of 1998, after more than 20 years of self- serving sin. I don’t like to dwell in my sinful past, but often I’ve felt that my wrong turns could serve as an example to others in similar sufferings.
At the age of 13, I felt that growing up in a Christian home had gained me nothing. I felt there was a whole world passing me by, and the Christian life would cause me too miss out on it! This, of course, was a trick of the enemy. I turned my back on the Lord and His plan for my life and set out to live life for myself. Today I thank God for parents who never stopped praying for me.
Along the path of my journey, I became addicted to drugs and alcohol. My first intervention was an after school event at the age of sixteen. My family and a close family friend ambushed me. Of course, I denied it all. This became the first of many lies I would tell throughout my adult life to cover my sin.
At the age of nineteen, I enlisted in the Marine Corps and found myself serving in the Middle East. Soon after, my attitude changed. I took up the study of the Martial Arts and achieved a very high ranking in Chinese Kung Fu. This required me to practice many occult traditions which, at the time, I didn’t fully understand what I had gotten myself into spiritually. This is too often the case in the study of the fighting arts. I became a Taoist, sold out to the beliefs of this oriental philosophy. This caused me unbelievable problems and put me in bondage to the enemy. I suffered from horrible nightmares, rage and depression, anxiety, homicidal and suicidal thoughts and often I would be psychologically abusive to my wife and daughter.
You see, there is a price to pay when we deal with the enemy. My life took a downward spiral to the point where my finances were almost destroyed, and my relationship with my wife was nearly over. All that was dear to me was slipping away. At last, I had a series of events take place that pushed me over the edge. After many failed attempts at suicide, I tried once again only to be stopped by my wife in the middle of the night. A few weeks earlier she had accepted Christ as her Savior and at that point, I noticed a remarkable change in her. This shook me.
The next day, I cried out to God and asked for his forgiveness and his mercy. He not only heard me; he answered and soon after called me into His ministry. This isn’t the end of the story. It took several months to cleanse my home and my life from all the sinful activity that I had been immersed in. I would advise anybody who is involved in any type of occult activity to stop now! Burn all your books, charms, incense and anything connected to this activity. Denounce the works of the enemy in your life and accept Jesus Christ as your personal Savior. The Bible tells us:
“Wherefore God also hath highly exalted him, and given him a name which is above every other name: That at the name of Jesus every knee should bow, of things in heaven, and things in earth, and things under the earth; and that every tongue should confess that Jesus Christ is Lord, to the glory of God the Father.” Philippians 2:9-11
This also includes the enemy himself.
I would like to thank my Lord and Savior, Jesus Christ, for his grace and mercy. There is nothing we can do that he won’t forgive us for. I would also like to say that I never lived until he saved me. All his promises are true, just call upon his name and read his book.
“But God commendeth his love for us, in that, while we were yet sinners, Christ died for us.” Romans 5:8